[Verse 1]
I wake up, kettle on, same routine, same screen,
Scroll through the madness of the online machine,
Names in the comments, they think that they know me,
But they don’t see the man, just the version I show, see.
I’ve lived a life, I’ve got stories untold,
From Hong Kong nights to the Brighton cold,
A father, a partner, still standing tall,
While strangers throw stones from behind their wall.
[Pre-Chorus]
They say, “Matt, grow up,” but I just grin,
’Cause taking the piss is where I begin,
But somewhere deep, there’s a quieter voice…
Asking me softly—what’s the real choice?
[Chorus]
I’m wasting my life away making these silly videos,
Laughing at chaos that nobody really knows,
I must do something more productive with my time (and skills),
But the buzz of the moment… yeah, it gives me thrills.
I’m caught between the man I am and who I could be,
A voice in the noise or a legacy,
I’m wasting my life away—or maybe I’m not,
Maybe this madness is all that I’ve got.
[Verse 2]
There’s Lenny in the chat, there’s Brian holding ground,
Good people in the mix when the madness comes around,
And yeah, there’s the trolls, same script, same lines,
Same tired little insults, different usernames.
They think it’s a game, they think it’s a show,
But they don’t see the layers underneath it all, no,
’Cause every word spoken, every clip I make,
Is a piece of a puzzle they’ll never quite take.
[Pre-Chorus]
And I could walk away, switch it all off,
Trade the chaos in for a quieter path,
But then who am I when the silence begins?
Just a man… or the ghost of what might’ve been?
[Chorus]
I’m wasting my life away making these silly videos,
Laughing at chaos that nobody really knows,
I must do something more productive with my time (and skills),
But the buzz of the moment… yeah, it gives me thrills.
I’m caught between the man I am and who I could be,
A voice in the noise or a legacy,
I’m wasting my life away—or maybe I’m not,
Maybe this madness is all that I’ve got.
[Bridge]
What if the joke is deeper than it seems?
What if the laughter’s building bigger dreams?
What if the chaos is part of the plan—
To show the world the truth of a man?
Not perfect, not polished, not playing a role,
Just speaking my mind, heart, body and soul,
And if they don’t like it, well that’s okay—
I’ve never been built to just fade away.
[Final Chorus – Lift]
I’m NOT wasting my life away making these silly videos,
I’m carving a path that only I chose,
Yeah, I’ll do something more with my time (and skills),
But I’ll do it my way—with all of my thrills. 🎶
🎶 I’m the man I am and the man I’ll be,
No need to fit their identity,
It’s not a waste if it sets me free,
These “silly videos”… they’re a part of me.
[Outro]
So roll the tape, let the madness play,
Another clip, another say,
And somewhere between the laughs and the fight…
I’m building something… that just might be right.
